He is my stuffed St. Bernard that
I have had since I was 9 years old.
whenever I wrote in my journal
I always wrote it to George.
He was kinda my substitute for
Long time no write.
It's not that I don't have anything to say
(we both know that would never be true)
it's more like I'm not sure what to say
or quite how to say it.
I've been reflecting on the last few weeks
in the Rob/Kristen fandom
and trying to put my thoughts into words...
not an easy thing to do sometimes.
I guess the biggest realization is
'can't win for losing'
I'm STILL a fan of Rob and Kristen.
Together. Apart. Whatever.
For some reason people have a hard time with this.
I don't know why it matters to
anyone else who I like
(or don't like)
if I talk about Kristen...
well then I'm not Rob's fan
if I talk about Rob...
of course that means I'm betraying Kristen somehow.
See what I mean, George?
People need to realize that being a fan
is all about ebb and flow.
Sometimes there is a lot going on with one...
over the other
so naturally that's what you talk about.
Simple logic... right?
At least it should be.
But alas, nothing is ever simple in this fandom.
People are strange, George.
I really haven't said much about
Robs relationship with Twigs.
Mostly because there isn't much for me TO say.
But at least I can admit there is a relationship...
unlike some people.
(Give up on the marriage/baby bullshit already, OK?
Rob and Kristen would NEVER be in a relationship for PR)
I don't hate Twigs...
I don't particularly like her either.
When I think about her
I physically shrug my shoulders.
But you know me, George...
I'm not going to hate on Twigs just
because Rob is dating her now.
It really doesn't matter if I like it or not...
Besides... I don't want to be like the
Robsessed Nonstens who have hated on Kristen
for the past 6 years.
Who needs all that bitter in their life?
I do find the whole 'Twigbert'
thing pretty hilarious though
All the years of being called a Robsten Shipper
and now to have those same people
fawning all over Twigs and shipping Rob and her...
Funny shit, George. Hilarious shit.
They are oohing and awing over her every move
because that's what "REAL" fans do.
I saw her on Fallon, George.
I liked what she did with the huge scarves... very cool.
Her singing? Not so much. Not my thing.
Can't pretend otherwise.
I wish this meant they would back the hell off Kristen
(of course they won't...
they still discuss her and 2012 every day.
Every fucking day.
I bet a Ninnie somewhere is
talking 'mini cooper' right now. Wanna bet?)
Everyone knows that 99% of their adoration
is because she's NOT Kristen.
You know how it goes, George...
"ANYONE BUT KRISTEN"
There has been some comparison of Rob/Twigs to
John Lennon and Yoko Ono
(and I have to admit, George...
when I saw recent pics...
John Lennon did pop into my head)
You KNOW I have been a major Beatles fan
since I was just a wee lass,
so I know a bit about the whole Yoko deal...
and to be honest, George...
there are a few similarities.
Yoko was blamed for everything.
She supposedly broke up the Beatles!
Well according to disgruntled fans anyway.
Its easy to pin the blame on
the quirky, weird avant-garde artist
who has seemingly bewitched their beloved hero.
Suddenly they're not the 'same' anymore
They wear strange clothes.
They behave differently.
They don't look like themselves...
And it's all HER fault.
The thing is.. people change. They grow.
No one remains the same forever...
and who would want to?
Do I think Rob is influenced by Twigs?
Aren't we all influenced by
the people closest to us?
Whether we like it or not.
It is what it is.
I can't tell you how indifferent I am..
How extremely nonchalant
I am about their relationship.
I was overly invested in Rob/Kristen
Thank GOD I learned my lesson years ago.
It makes things so much easier.
I will ALWAYS love and be grateful
for all the years that
Rob and Kristen gave us.
It doesn't diminish what
they shared together.
|Memories... light the corners of my mind...|
Years of watching them fall in love...
sharing a life.
No one can ever take that away from them...
It was a wonderful ride.
We had a lot of laughs.
We had a good run... didn't we?
And while Rob and Kristen are
now riding in separate cars,
It's OK... It really is.
I think they are both where
they want to be right now.
They both seem happy.
What more can you
|Misty water-colored memories... of the Way We Were.|
And besides... you know how it goes.
There is nothing to say that the road
they are on right now
won't someday intersect with the other...
You never know, George... You never know.
Final Thoughts for the day, George.
2. Some people still seem to think its my job
to police the fandom.
I'm supposed to "do something" about the hatred
that is spewed out there.
Like what exactly?
Throw them in cyber jail?
I don't remember being given a badge.
(but it would kinda be cool
if you have one lying about)
Here's the deal.
I'm not responsible for what other people say.
That goes for people who follow me
or whom I follow.
Just because I talk to someone
who has a certain opinion...
Doesn't mean I share that opinion.
The world is made of of DIFFERING opinions.
That's what makes it interesting.
If I only talked to people who agreed
with my point of view
it would not only be incredibly boring...
but I'm sure the number of people
I actually talked to would be quite small.
What fun is that?
And why would anyone limit yourself
like that on a SOCIAL PLATFORM?
I am only responsible for my
own words and actions.
I stand by every one.
I still adore BOTH Rob and Kristen
and remain a fan of their work...
and I can guarantee you have
NEVER seen me disparage either of them.
And you never will.
If you have a problem with something I have said?
Come talk to me and discuss it like an adult.
If you have a problem with something
someone else has said?
Don't complain to me.
Go to the source and deal with it.
Or you can lock and block
and mute or unfollow.
Whatever floats your boat.
3. Kristen attended the
AFI Indie Contenders Roundtable.
Cool beans, George.
She was in awesome company
and got to discuss her upcoming incredible movies.
You know, George...
I have always hesitated using
the word "proud" in relation to people
I don't personally know...
I'm fucking proud of her.
She's worked so hard.
She's come so far.
And she deserves every bit of
praise and admiration she is getting right now.
I'm looking forward to seeing more
promo for her movies.
I can't wait.
She is endlessly interesting and captivating.
I couldn't be more thrilled
and happy for her.
I. Adore. Her.
4. Oh dear Rob.
He shaved and cut his hair, George.
I'm wondering what it will look like without the hat.
I kinda feel how Rob looks in this picture.
But there is GOOD news!
BOTH Rob and Kristen are going
to be at the Hollywood Film Awards this Friday.
AND it's on TV!!
Unfortunately I already have plans so
I won't be able to watch "Live"...
but maybe that's just as well considering
the drama at just the fact that
Rob and Kristen would both be attending.
Might as well get used to it.
It's going to happen from time to time.
That's what happens when people
make movies and go to festivals
and award shows.
I'm sure this is only the beginning.
5. I will never forget this...
and forever want to see it again.
6. I adore shaggy beardy Tom.
Hell. I just adore Tom. Period.
This post has been brought
to you by acceptance.
It really does bring peace.
Until next time.
Bye for now